Tiger

Dream - I thought I was petting a kitten, I had it so long and never paid attention. One day the kitten woke up feisty and I realized I had a tiger full grown staring back at me and I so nonchalant sitting next to it with my arm draped over unaware of the danger because for so long it had been my kitten.
So I stood up and took notice, but then a strange delighted thought came over me that I could indeed tame tigers so I poked and played with my kitten tiger and it shyly played back for a bit. It was only calm for a moment. Because when I realized it was so much stronger than me, so did he. So I ran.

Maybe it's dreams like these that make me realize I'm a dog person. Or maybe it's the delightful predictability of dogs that make me dream of cats. Or maybe my damn house cat should stop sleeping on my pillow and purring all night. Maybe I stole her dreams of once becoming a tiger

Physical self abuse

I lay in bed for a few extra minutes to catalog the sensations and twitches as my body starts to wake up with my groggy mind. The window is still open but I am not cold. The damp air lingers around the maple that's budded out and the dull roar of tires pushing rainwater into pavement rises like waves just in the distance.
My shoulders are tight and tense even after a night of good sleep from pulling on the massive grapevines. My feet still sing the thousand steps from serving food and running food and opening bottles and running bottles. Inside of my thighs have some fresh bruises from the horn of a saddle as a barn sour horse tried his best to buck me off. And my wrists and shins are just starting to forget the yoga I put them through yesterday as I prepare to go to my toughest class of the week this morning.

I wonder when I'm out of energy if I beat my poor body up too much. My doctor says I should take it easy but women from my clan have been known to work their spines into twisted frames from years and years a of laboring the soil. I am pretty well set down that path. I should select a more cerebral passtime, but an object in motion, remains in motion.

So I put on my yoga pant, pour some coffee in a to go cup, shut the window before it hits 30 degrees today, and I'm off to start my day.

Headaches and headaches.

Today is the first day in a long time I've gotten out of bed without a dull numb headache and that's how I know its going to be a good day. I also have addressed an annoying employee problem where instead of talking to me, she just tattles to my bosses. I love it when someone won't say things to my face about problems but will tell my bosses everything I'm doing wrong. Sigh. I wanted to fire her when she started but my bosses like her. She is, in fact, pointing out everything that's wrong with our company... Namely me.

I guess some people are just like that. Some people walk by you without a word then when they get to their desks, they send out an angry email.
I just need a reality reset. I am really in bizzaro world right now